Dear Aidan,
   It's been one month since you left us.  Not a day has gone by when I haven't cried thinking about you and missing you.  I miss you soooo very much -- your voice, your hugs, your crazy amount of energy.  But at least I know that you are safe now, and you will never be hurt again.
   Sometimes I think about the tough times I had with disciplining you, but they don't matter anymore because overall, I think that you were PERFECT.  You made our family life so beautiful and you made the world a better place ... I heard Celine Dion's "Because You Loved Me" yesterday, and I think it's a perfect song about you.  You were my joy, my dream, my strength, my light, and so much more.  You got me through so many rough times and helped me accomplish so much in life, and although you never said it, I know that you believed in me, and I truly was blessed because I was loved by you.
   I love you so much Aidan, and although I am still so very sad, I know you are going to help me, Daddy, and Logan heal.  We will learn to move on without your physical presence, but you will ALWAYS be in our hearts.

"Because You Loved Me"
performed by Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through, through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand, I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

It's been four weeks since Aidan passed away, sometimes it feels like it was so long ago and other times it feels like it was just yesterday. I never imagined life without Aidan. Aidan brought us so much joy and happiness. Without him, life has an empty feeling. With both of my boys and Deb, life felt complete, now it's like we're trying to drive our car on three wheels. Aidan is in our hearts, but we want him by our sides. I miss you so much son and there really aren't words that can describe how much it hurts. We love you!

Aidan, you were such a strong person.  You survived part of my intern year in my belly, and then the rest of residency with so much energy.  You survived the scorching heat in Fresno.  You experienced so many changes with me and Daddy during our first years together, and never complained.  You loved your brother with all your heart and more -- you gave your life to protect his.  Just know that Logan misses you very much.  You will always be in our hearts.  WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!
Love, Mommy

First father's day without Aidan - we miss our Aidan so much, he was so full of life and love. He had such a big heart and was the most amazing boy. We love you Aidan!